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I never thought it would come to this

So, I'm online looking up random pics of Jack Barakat (crush of the moment haha)...and what do I find?

Pictures of him AND Josh Randall. Like quite a few. It's weird to go from seeing Josh around town in Denny's, and bars, other random places, and gigs in the Grotto to only ever seeing him playing bigger gigs...and hanging out with some of my fave bands. Hopefully Every Avenue's tour manager will let the band play another hometown gig. Josh is good people.

Anyway, tonight was nice. Was supposed to go clubbing with the girls from work. Instead I end up going to Buffalo Wild Wings with Tiffany and gazebo77. We pigged out on junk and had our drinks and played trivia. Good times.

Last night I went to Blockbuster. Bought 4 movies. Vicky Christina Barcelona (great movie), The Duchess, My Best Friend's Girl, and Nick & Nora's Infinite Playlist. I only ever go to Blockbuster to partake in the 4 for $20 deal. Haha.

Tomorrow Tiffy and I are gonna go to a movie and perhaps the beach. Yay! Relaxation!

Also apparently Ian has been asking Tiffy about me. Oyeeee! It aint gonna happen. It's just not there.

Need your looooooove

So the TAI show was amazing. Here's some pics from that day... (and oh yes, I met Beckett AND Siska...I basically love my life) I will send out a full review asap.

I'm not into raping your friends pages..so clicky clicky for the pics...Collapse )
~) Mom got me a pair of really cute blue polka-dotted sandals.
~) Don't eat cracker jacks when you have a canker sore.
~) I have a vitamin deficiency obviously.
~) I watched THS: *N Sync yesterday.
~) I felt like a kid again.
~) Can I please go back to being 15?
~) I keep dreaming about my old friends.
~) Pfft! Wonder why.
~) My two best friends now live atleast 45 minutes away from me.
~) And one lives roughly 800 miles away.
~) January :)
~) Mooresville :)
~) I have to pay Heather back still.
~) Going to get a job.
~) My weakness is that I care too much.
~) The daisies are back. It makes me smile.
~) I love going to Barnes & Noble
~) I like the Brittish verson of Cosmopolitan better than the American.
~) Is Will Farrell this decades' Jim Carrey?
~) The only people I've ever trusted my heart with are my friends.
~) But somehow losing, is far worse than losing a guy.
~) I've got posterboard.
~) I'm going to start making collages.
~) Gorillas live atleast 25 years.
~) "Ahh I've lost my children...wait, actually one of them is under your car."
~) I need some guy friends. I only have casual guy friends. I need some actual guy friends that I can talk to and hang out with all the time.
~) If I could be anything I'd probably be a volcanologist. I've been facinated by volcanos since I was a kid. But I really don't care to take all the math classes it would require.
~) I'm addicted to the new Rihanna song "Umbrella"
~) I miss camping. I can't wait to go again.
~) Yesterday I woke myself up by yelling "You go look for it, I'm not the one who lost it!"
~) I talk in my sleep a lot, so of course from time to time I wake myself up doing it.
~) I still play neopets.

The hardest part of this is leaving you

"Faith is being sure of what we hope for, and certain of what we do not see." - Hebrew: 11-1

I've always loved that. My old friend Angela gave me a beautiful mirror with an angel on it, with those words engraved on it. I keep it on my nightstand

Grandma said you can only get angry with God when you believe in Him.

Ooh, I'm excited that Barack Obama is officially running for President. He's got my mom's vote, and mine as well so far.

Anyway, I delivered all day today. It was kind of exhausting

Saw one of the most heartbreaking things ever today.

We deliver at this place in Harbor Beach. Harbor Light Inn? Something like that. Well anyway, the place is always full of cats/kittens. Today there were 5 cats all huddled in front of the building. I walked by and saw the single dish with cat food (I guess the owner is trying to atleast help them in the food department). I said to them "you poor guys." Then I walked into the building to put the magazines in.

When I walked out this beautiful black and white cats walked up to me. She had to have been a few months old, no more than a year. Anyway, when I looked down I noticed the cat's poor leg. The bottom part of it was broken and at a 90 degree angle. You could see the bone. She was limping on the stump of it.

She sniffed my hand and then rubbed her head against it. Dad was telling me we had to leave. But she/he (I obviusly didn't look to find out whether it was a boy or a girl) followed me to the truck. Meowing the whole time. She actually tried to get into it.

I can't get the image of this poor cat out of my head. I want to DO something for it. I called the Sanilac County Humame Society (it's a no-kill shelter). Figures...its full. I'm going to try to call the humane society on Lapeer. Hopefully they can do something.

My dad brought up the possibility that he/she might scratch my face off if I accidentally touched her leg. So I'm gonna bring one of the cat carriers we always put our cats in when we take them to the vet. I'll try to coax her in with food.

If she doesn't get in, or even more so, if the humane society in town can't take the cat, I'm gonna have to let nature handle it. That will break my heart.

I can't stand to see animals in pain like that. I was just surprised that she seemed like such a happy cat.

Something just keeps nagging me about the kitty.

Last years wishes are this years apologies

I've updated my projectplaylist. Haha. More random songs. But not much more. haha.

30) Finding Myself - Smile Empty Soul
31) Dammit - Blink 182
32) I'm Not Sleeping Alone - JC Chasez
33) Damn I Wish I Was Your Lover - Sophie B. Hawkins
34) Hate Me - Blue October
35) Jailhouse Rock - Elvis Presley

It's late. I'm sort of an insomniac.

Can't wait for the new FOB record. I'M GETTING IT DAY OF RELEASE AND I DONT CARE WHAT IT TAKES (that's what FYE is for...take in old cds and dvds I don't care for and get money for them. haha)

I dont know what I'm doing anymore

YES! It's official! Samantha got our My Chem tix. YAY!

Off to to shopping now.


Ask me three questions...

No more, no less.

Ask me anything you want.

Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this, allowing your friends (including me) to ask you anything.

I don't make the same mistakes twice...

You're an Expert Kisser

You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity
You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off
And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave
When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable

You Are a Conservative Democrat

Frankly, the way most other Democrats behave embarasses you greatly.
You pride yourself on a high level of morals, and you have a good grasp on right and wrong.
It's likely you think America needs to get back to its conservative, Juedo-Christian values.
Why aren't you a Republican then? Because you believe the goverment helps more than hurts.

Heh...I always felt that I was a more of a liberal republican. Well that still could equeal out to being a conservative democrat then. lol

You Are 32% Cynical

Generally you give people the benefit of the doubt. But there are exceptions.
You buy into many of the things that mainstream society believes, but you're not anybody's fool.

You Have Low Self Esteem 40% of the Time

Generally, you feel pretty darn great about who you are, even when you mess up or fail.
Occasionally, a huge setback will make you question yourself, but you pick yourself up quickly.

You Are a Chick Rocker!

You're living proof that chicks can rock
You're inspired by Joan Jett and the Donnas
And when you rock, you rock hard
(Plus, you get all the cute guy groupies you want!)

Do this please :)

Random thoughts...

x) By nature I'm not a judgemental person.
x) I usually see the positive in people. It takes a lot for me to just give up on someone.
x) But in situations...sometimes things are either black or white.
x) I'm a contradiction.
x) In the last year I've realised that some people are brought into your life to help you become the person you've always wanted to be.
x) No matter how akward the situation, I've always gotten through.
x) Make sure that you're on the boy's mom's good side.
x) And for Pete's sake...be careful.
x) I've changed so much in the last year alone.
x) I miss my friend Bill. I still think about him every so often (like every couple days or so). I hope he's happy in Heaven. I look forward to seeing him again.
x) Nothing is worse than losing a friend. It's something no one should have to go through.
x) I think I'm a mix of Charlotte and Samantha from Sex and the City.
x) The Samantha part has really come through in the last three weeks.
x) I'm terrified, elated, scared, overjoyed, confused, eager, nervous, and so damn happy.
x) This is an interesting situation.
x) I believe its good to question everything. God accepts it as much as he expects it.
x) I'm a little wary of religion in general. I'd consider myself very spiritual though.
x) I'm not fond of organized religion. I don't believe you have to go to church to have a relationship with God.
x) I believe everyone goes to heaven. I do think you have to answer for all your mistakes though in your earth life when you get there.
x) If God really is a loving and forgiving God, then why would he send his creations to burn for eternity no matter what they have done. I don't believe hell is this literal inferno.
x) I believe if hell were real its more likely Earth.
x) I was baptised in the Episcopal church (yes...that's christian). I think I still identify more with their teachings. But through my own search I've gotten my own beliefs.
x) I love "The Minstrel's Prayer" by Cartel. That song is gorgeous.
x) It's easy to relax around him.
x) Holy shit I trust him...I'm taking a big chance here.
x) I love falling asleep next to him and waking up in his arms. I feel safe there.
x) I've been to Ohio, Indiana, Illinois, Iowa, Missouri, Kansas, Colorado, Nevada, Arizonam and Michigan (obviously since I live here).
x) I'm a quarter Canadian. (my maternal grandma is from Petrolia, Ontario, Canada)
x) If I'm in a room, the door has to be closed or I go crazy. I don't feel safe for some reason.
x) I like my eyes. They change color. One minute they're impossibly green, and the next they're brown and orange. Sometimes they look blue. I have true hazel eyes.
x) Boyband ballads aren't exactly honest when it comes to love.
x) I mean, come on..."This I promise you...without you in my life baby I just wouldn't be living at all"? Does that kind of love even exist? I don't know.
x) My mom and I have a common love for Keanu Reeves.
x) My mom keeps daisies in her garden just because she knows they're my favorite flower.
x) I love my mom. She's my best friend.
x) I'm a bridesmaid in my cousin's upcoming wedding.
x) Its gotten me thinking about what I want in my bouquet when I marry (someday...like in my late twenties if I have my way lol)...daisies and tiger lilies.
x) My first Simple Plan show...I came home with a picture of a random guy.
x) Tiffy and I had our picture taken with a PETA guy at warped tour last year. His sign said "Free hugs". It made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.
x) Joe from Hidden In Plain View is one of the sweetest guys that I've ever had the pleasure of meeting. I wish that I had asked for a picture with him.
x) Tom from Plain White T's ran into me. I did a double take. And then I got an autograph, a handshake AND a high five. I was in heaven.
x) Being 21 to me has meant being negative (can't help it, thats just who I am), but seeing light at the end of the tunnel, and knowing that if I keep plugging away, I will get to the light.
x) The last two years of my life has been one of the most challenging periods, but also the most rewarding.
x) I have so many amazing memories.


Do this please.... :)
1. Name:
2. Birthday:
3. Place of residence:
4. What makes you happy?
5. What are you listening to now/have listened to last?
6. Do you read my lj?
7. If you do, what is particularly good/bad about it?
8. An interesting fact about you:
9. Are you in love/have a crush at the moment?
10. Favourite place to be:
11. Favourite lyric:
12. Best time of the year:
13. Weirdest food you like:

1. a film:
2. a book:
3. a band, a song and an album:

1. One thing you like/dislike about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself:
3. Put this in your lj so i can tell you what i think of you.

The last month...in song lyrics

"You know I wouldn't want to ruin all your chances/on your one night stand romances" -Hidden In Plain View "Halycon Daze"

"I could be anyone you want/but I'm glad I got the job/I've got something in mind/and we've got all this time" - The Starting Line "Stay Where I Can See You"

Cuz from the first time I saw you/I only thought about you/I didn't know you/I wanted to hold onto/the things you'd never say to me" - Good Charlotte "Change"

"You are the only one that needs to know/I'll keep you my dirty little secret"" - All American Rejects "Dirty Little Secret"

"Your voice is resonating in my mind/countless hours with you on the phone/and now I'm not alone" - Allister "Scratch"

"Do I gotta spell it out for you/I can see that you got other plans tonight/but I don't really care" - The Veronicas "4Ever"

"Sometimes I think you're in/until I think you're out/it's like I'm swimming in the deep end pull me out" - Lindsay Lohan "A Little More Personal"

"Don't go promising the skies tonight/when you're crazy/cuz you're crazy beautiful" - Hanson "Crazy Beautiful"

"I'm dealing with the changes/this complicated strangeness/of seeing life this way" - Faith Hill "This Is Me"

"Staring at the phone all day/wont make you call me/and sitting here playing it off/wont change a thing" - Kaci Brown "SOS"

"Got myself to blame for all my bad moods/and I really wish that I didn't feel this way/I wanna break the circle but the circle wont break/I don't wanna spend another night/trying to figure out why you're always on my mind" - Ashlee Simpson "Coming Back For More"

"If I had known then/that these things happen/would they have happened with you" - Michelle Branch "Tuesday Morning"

"I think I like you/but you like this whole room/you sexy machine" - Gavin Degraw "Chemical Party"

"I hate being addicted/only you would have predicted/that I'd be torn and worn so thin/you can see right through" - LeAnn Rimes "Damn"